Motivation, Where Are You?!

So, I know I haven't done a post since doing The Ultimate Reset. I actually didn't even finish the Reset. I did good on it for about a week and a half, lost 10 pounds then I got really sick a few times, and ended up stopping it. I'm not even sure what actually made me sick. Ever since then I have not been able to follow through with anything! I have absolutely no motivation, and no oomph.

 

I mean I am going on a cruise next March, and I want to feel the best I ever have and comfortable in my skin. I think about it all the time, but that doesn't even seem to motivate me anymore.

Every part of who I am and who I want to be stems from losing weight and being the best version of myself. I want to make health and fitness a full time job, I want to inspire people and I want people to know if I can do it so can they! I want to be healthy when I have kids so I can raise my kids that way. Also, when I find "Mr. Wonderful" I hope that he will be just as interested in his health and fitness as well. How can I want and do all of this, without doing it for myself first?

 

I did come to realization that my problem is definitely my nutrition. It seems like I can't control what goes in my mouth no matter how hard I try. I know that I eat out of boredom, but I think I need to really evaluate myself and figure out what got me to this point so I can fix it. Why can't I turn away from the temptation? I know it's yummy food, but come on I should be able to have a little control! I can exercise for days, but when it comes to nutrition, I just can't do it. I think that I am going to take some time and just focus on the eating clean. I plan on completely scheduling every little thing I put in my mouth, and doing food preps a couple times a week.

I keep wondering if subconsciously I am telling myself that I can't actually do this. That I can't be successful, and I will never achieve my goals. I know that's not true, but I honestly think that might be part of my problem.
 

 

As I said, when it comes to working out I can do that. I did Focus T25 for a while, then I went on a trip and got off track again. I need to seriously get back to it. I love this workout! Who doesn't have 25 minutes a day, 5 days a week? Errbody's got time for that!!

I feel like this is just a tumble effect. If I don't eat well, I feel sluggish, and then I don't want to workout. I talked to a friend of mine and she told me that it's all in baby steps and to not overwhelm myself. This doesn't happen overnight. I am such an all or nothing person and it's hard for me to just work on one thing at a time, but I think this is what I need to be successful.



 

I need to do something again though. I always say that I am trying to live life to the fullest, but I am not. I don't want to do anything. I have no confidence, no self esteem, no desire. I need to figure this out before I look back on my life and regret not doing all the things I wanted too. I will get myself on track, I will start loving myself, I will start living my life again. I am not going to be this girl, I refuse to be her. I want a change. I need a change.

 

 

I did this blog to share every aspect of my journey and my life. Not only the good stuff, but the bad stuff as well. The hard times. The times when you and I need the most support. I will be starting off small, and working to the bigger picture. I am ready to start the rest of my life.

Reclaim Day 2 & 3

Hey! Sorry I am a day late, I figured I would just put day 2 & 3 together so I am not completely behind!

Yesterday I was still pretty tired when I woke, BUT I was up all night peeing because of that gallon of water. Oh boy! So worth it though. I had some oatmeal with berries for breakfast along with my supplements. I felt pretty tired all day.

So then I had my Alkalinize with not as much water, and that was a mistake! I could barely get it down this time. It tasted more like grass than yesterday. I had to plug my nose and then take a seperate drink of water. People say that after a few days you get to where you don't hardly taste it at all. Something about the alkalinity of your body affects that. Well duh, Ashlee. That's probably why it's called Alkalinize...But I can't wait for that day! I then had about a cup of fruit for a snack. I still am not feeling too hungry this morning.

For lunch I had a salad with some chicken. You eat a ton of salad on this, so I may never want to even look at a salad again! I think if you can find some different ways to mix it up that will help tremendously.

Then for dinner, I was naughty. I am in the process of something (not quite ready to tell you yet, so be patient. :) ), and was pretty busy with phone calls and meetings last night, so we just ordered some sandwiches from Pizza Hut. I thought maybe that was a better option then pizza. I might be wrong though, sometimes you would be surprised! Then I drank my last bit of water and crashed. I was soo ready for bed.

Then today, I actually woke up feeling pretty rested. Not completely ready to get out of bed, but more willing then normal. I absolutely despise mornings. Grr. Then I took my supplements of course, and had a bowl of fruit for breakfast. Favorite breakfast ever! You all know how much I love my fruit.! Lunch was another salad of course, and then for dinner I had Tempeh with some veggies and brown rice. I didn't take any pictures today because my phone died.. Now that I think about it, today was an all around tough day on my reset. Hopefully tomorrow is better!

This was the first time I had ever tried Tempeh. I was nervous, but pretty excited. I am the kind of girl who orders the exact same thing and hardly ever tries something new. This reset has pulled me completely out of my comfort zone and I am trying things I never would have before. I can say that so far there's not anything I have found that I don't like. The Tempeh is going to take some getting used to because I do have a bit of a texture problem, but I was pleasantly surprised at how yummy it was!

Today I noticed that I was feeling pretty irritable. I didn't keep up on my supplements as well as I should have. I took them, but they weren't at the same time and consistency is key. We were just super busy at work and it just didn't work out. I will be taking the nasty green stuff tonight instead of this morning. Hopefully that works and won't throw me off. As I said though, I was a lot more on edge today, and that might be some of the emotions coming out of me that I was told would happen. Hopefully I don't go too crazy and mean! Well I am getting ready to feed my doggies and then head home and go to bed. I am pooped. It was a long day at work and I am so glad that tomorrow is my last day and then I have a four day weekend! I'll be talking to you all again tomorrow. Have a fantastic night! :)

Can I Be A Baby Again.?

Hey everyone! I know what you're probably thinking, "Girl, it isn't Friday, AND you missed last Friday too!" Okay, maybe you aren't thinking that, but I would be if I was you. 

Sorry I have been so MIA. My life has been crazy busy and I've been making some major life decisions  that I will possibly be telling you about when it all happens. I had every intention of doing this blog yesterday, but it just didn't work out. It might be late, but at least I am doing one, right?

Another reason I didn't do a blog last week is because my motivation and my commitment has been seriously lacking. I am not sure what my deal is, but I need to get it under control. This is ridiculous! I just seem to have no willpower, no motivation, no energy, no nothing. I just want to sit around and do nothing, and believe me that is doing absolutely no good! 

I need this shirt!

So anyway! I wanted to let you guys in a little somethin', somethin' I am going to be starting on Wednesday which I hope will be the kick in the butt I need! It's called... drum roll please.. The Ultimate Reset! 

Now some of you may have heard of this and know what is, and some of you may be asking, "What the heck is The Ultimate Reset?" Well to put it simply, it's a cleanse, detox, and reset without all of the harsh chemicals or starvation. It's a 21 day, 3 phase program. I will be taking some natural supplements and eating 3 meals a day and 1 snack. I have been wanting to do this forever, so with my lack of determination being at an all time low, I decided that it was time to just go for it. I like to call it "Spring Cleaning."

I have talked to multiple people about this program, and from what they have told me it just all around makes you feel better. They say you lose an average of 15-20 pounds, but that's just a bonus and the real results come from the way you feel. They say they sleep better, and have more energy. I mean, how couldn't you? It's cleaning your body of all the toxins that you have taken in over the years. It will reset your body to when you were a baby and put you back in working order! I can say that I am sooo excited about this, but I am also pretty nervous. I do feel determined to stick this through! Kind of ironic with me mentioning my lack of determination up above..

So, the plan is that I will be posting daily during The Reset. I will be keeping you all updated on how I feel, what I eat, and of course my results. I did some grocery shopping today, and it's a lot of foods I have never eaten before. Like seaweed?? Uhm yeah, pretty nervous to try that.. But I keep telling myself that it's all for the best and it's going to be worth it! Oh! And Whole Foods is now my favorite store. See, I live in a rinky dink town with absolutely nothing! I am not exaggerating, the closest Walmart is 50 miles away. Yeah, you read that right. What am I thinking, huh? 

I am going to be eating a lot of fruits and veggies, and trying new things. I am excited. Change is a good thing and I love fruits! I could probably live on fruits. My mouth is watering just thinking about it.

Speaking of fruits... I am addicted to juicing! I absolutely love it. I cleaned out my fridge today for my new groceries and found a bunch of fruits that are on the verge of going bad, so what did I do? Yup you guessed it, I juiced the heck out of them and a made a yummy drink! Mom and dad even approved of it. If you don't have a juicer, I highly recommend it! Not only is it good for you, but it's delish also!

Well it's pretty late, and I have church in the morning so I should probably be getting to bed. I am pretty tired now that I think about it.. So I start my reset on Wednesday, and as I said I will be posting every night at the end of my day. I am excited, and I am glad to have you all along side me as I do this. It's going to be an amazing 21 days. Bring It On!

Goodnight you sexy people!