The Rest Of My Life

So, I have decided that today is the first day to the rest of my life! I have been sick for the past week and a half, and I have done absolutely nothing. I slept, and ate lots and lots of popsicles! I had a sore throat, and a cold, then a sinus infection, and then to top it all off I got a double ear infection? What?! I must have really pissed God off.

 

I finally went to the doctor after I got the ear infection, and when I stepped on the scale, I was not a happy camper. It pretty much ruined the rest of my week. I decided then & there that I was done messing around. This is it. I have said it before, but I am I determined that I will not let myself gain another single pound! I was pretty excited when I got on the scale this morning to get a *starting weight* and I according to it I have lost 6 pounds! So I guess I can't complain about that, but.. I am still not happy.

 

I am planning on finally starting Focus T25 again on September 16th. There is a challenge group going, and I am super excited to do it. If you're interested in joining, let me know. It's kind of last minute seeing as how tomorrow is the last day to join, so sorry! I did decide though I wasn't waiting till then, and I got up in the early, dreadful morning, at 4:00 a.m. Who in their right mind does that? Yup, this crazy chick and her mother.

 

I was bright eyed and bushy tailed, seeing as how I actually got up at 2:30 and couldn't fall back asleep. Then I realized that Shaun T. was about to make me his bitch. There is no doubt about it, that's definitely what he did. It feels sooo good to be working out again, and I am going to be sore tomorrow. No pain, no gain.. or should I say lose.. Hmm.

 

 

Also, I'm letting the cat out of the bag and *drum roll please.*  I am finally moving!! Sioux Falls, South Dakota, I am coming for you! I am so excited for this new chapter in my life. It's moving much faster than I had planned, but I just have to trust in God's plan, and know that everything is going to work out the way it should. I am so excited to see what my life holds for me!

 

My Dream Board for the rest of the year. Sorry some of it's hard to read!

 

There is still 3 and a half months left in the year, people! You know how much you can accomplish in that amount of time? Let's do this! I want to see you succeed! If you would like to join my private motivational group as well, let me know! Together we can do this!

 

 

 

 

 

Motivation, Where Are You?!

So, I know I haven't done a post since doing The Ultimate Reset. I actually didn't even finish the Reset. I did good on it for about a week and a half, lost 10 pounds then I got really sick a few times, and ended up stopping it. I'm not even sure what actually made me sick. Ever since then I have not been able to follow through with anything! I have absolutely no motivation, and no oomph.

 

I mean I am going on a cruise next March, and I want to feel the best I ever have and comfortable in my skin. I think about it all the time, but that doesn't even seem to motivate me anymore.

Every part of who I am and who I want to be stems from losing weight and being the best version of myself. I want to make health and fitness a full time job, I want to inspire people and I want people to know if I can do it so can they! I want to be healthy when I have kids so I can raise my kids that way. Also, when I find "Mr. Wonderful" I hope that he will be just as interested in his health and fitness as well. How can I want and do all of this, without doing it for myself first?

 

I did come to realization that my problem is definitely my nutrition. It seems like I can't control what goes in my mouth no matter how hard I try. I know that I eat out of boredom, but I think I need to really evaluate myself and figure out what got me to this point so I can fix it. Why can't I turn away from the temptation? I know it's yummy food, but come on I should be able to have a little control! I can exercise for days, but when it comes to nutrition, I just can't do it. I think that I am going to take some time and just focus on the eating clean. I plan on completely scheduling every little thing I put in my mouth, and doing food preps a couple times a week.

I keep wondering if subconsciously I am telling myself that I can't actually do this. That I can't be successful, and I will never achieve my goals. I know that's not true, but I honestly think that might be part of my problem.
 

 

As I said, when it comes to working out I can do that. I did Focus T25 for a while, then I went on a trip and got off track again. I need to seriously get back to it. I love this workout! Who doesn't have 25 minutes a day, 5 days a week? Errbody's got time for that!!

I feel like this is just a tumble effect. If I don't eat well, I feel sluggish, and then I don't want to workout. I talked to a friend of mine and she told me that it's all in baby steps and to not overwhelm myself. This doesn't happen overnight. I am such an all or nothing person and it's hard for me to just work on one thing at a time, but I think this is what I need to be successful.



 

I need to do something again though. I always say that I am trying to live life to the fullest, but I am not. I don't want to do anything. I have no confidence, no self esteem, no desire. I need to figure this out before I look back on my life and regret not doing all the things I wanted too. I will get myself on track, I will start loving myself, I will start living my life again. I am not going to be this girl, I refuse to be her. I want a change. I need a change.

 

 

I did this blog to share every aspect of my journey and my life. Not only the good stuff, but the bad stuff as well. The hard times. The times when you and I need the most support. I will be starting off small, and working to the bigger picture. I am ready to start the rest of my life.

There's no finish line, so enjoy the journey.

It's Friday, do you know what that means?! That's right, new blog baby! I wasn't sure if I was going to wait till next Friday to post this, but then I got done with my workout, was feeling great, and decided today was the day. I am going to talk about my reasoning behind this blog, why I decided to do it, and what I hope to get out of this. :)

 

I guess I will start at the beginning. I have always struggled with my weight ever since I was young. I am not 100% sure when it started, but I remember being in like 4th or 5th grade, and going to my biological father's house for the summer, and trying on some clothes that I left there, and I was barely able to get them up my legs, let alone buttoned. I'm not really sure why I didn't decide to start then, maybe because I was so young?

 

Well after that I just kept going up and up and up in my weight. It has always bothered me a little, and I do feel like I have missed out on some of my younger, teenage years, but I have always been a happy, bubbly, full of life kind of person and have had many friends. Sometimes I think that it can be more of an act, then truly happy, but most of the time I am genuinely happy. As I have gotten older though, I am still happy, but I am 21 years old, and most of the time I don't want to go out and live my life to the fullest. I don't have confidence in myself.  

 

Now this isn't to say that I haven't tried to lose weight. I have tried a couple of the fad diets, such as Ideal Protein, and Slim Fast. I actually lost 25 pounds with Ideal Protein, but as soon as I started eating normal food, I gained it all back and plus some. Nutrition is definitely the hardest part for me in this whole journey. I just love food! I heard about the Eat Clean Diet, and that is what I try to follow. It's something I could see myself on for the rest of my life. You need to find something that is a lifestyle diet, not a quick fix.

 

Now working out is a new found love of mine. My mom ALWAYS tried to get me to workout with her, and I wanted nothing to do with it. I hated it. I wanted to be able to lose weight without all the hard work and hassle. I wanted to wake up skinny. Well I hate to break it to you my loves, but that never works! I now want the satisfaction and the accomplishment when I reach my goal to be able to say that I literally worked my ass off to get where I am. I have tried many workout programs from The Firm, Turbo Jam, Insanity, ChaLean Extreme, and TurboFire. I am currently doing TurboFire, and it is definitely my soul mate workout!

 

What changed it for me and what made me decide to take my health into my own hands was stumbling across Kenna Shell. I remember seeing her picture and just right away was drawn to her. So I had a couple questions that I asked her about, and she would always answer right away. It was nice to know that she had tons of questions, but she took the time to answer all of those. She then talked about coaching and we set up a phone call, and that was when I decided that this is what I wanted to do. Not only did I want to get myself healthy, but I wanted to help others and inspire others along the way. I became a coach in October of 2012.

My life has changed drastically since October. I am still at the beginning of this journey, and I will be on it for the rest of my life. I wanted to start this blog, to have a journal for myself to look back on of course, but most importantly to help others! I want to share my struggles, my accomplishments, and let you know that you are not alone in this. I want you to know that you can do this, and I will be beside you the entire way! I want you to join me on this journey. I want you to take your life and your health in your hands and change your life. I want you to succeed. I want to help you succeed. I want to be held accountable and have you as my accountability partner.
 I want to inspire you.